We planned Miss J’s session for a little over a year. Little did we know, that it was a year that would put her to the test. She’s one of our community’s front line workers, caring for some of our most at risk members during the pandemic. She gave up a lot of her personal life this year for the sake of her residents. And I am beyond honored to have been able to give back to her. I could talk for hours about how strong this woman is, but let’s be honest, you want to hear from my babes!
From Miss J:
I have been intrigued by boudoir photography pretty much my entire adult life. There is just something about the simplicity, softness, femininity and vulnerability portrayed in each photo. I never thought I could convey those characteristics in pictures. I joined Caroline’s Facebook VIP group and I watched these amazingly diverse group of women glow after their sessions. These ladies all rave about their about their time and experience with Caroline. I was able to see her work from actual clients that choose to share their photos and stories. I watched for about a year, then I slowly started to comment and be involved. I became obsessed.
Once I decided to book my own session, a ton of questions ran through my mind during the whole process. Am I pretty enough? Am I thin enough? Am I feminine enough? Am I really going to spend money to get more pictures of myself looking awkward and uncomfortable? Am I going to be comfortable stripping down for a stranger to take my picture in such an intimate setting? Will I be able to do this? Will I be able to be vulnerable? Will I be able to relax?
The day of my session, I felt like a Victoria’s Secret Angel!! After my hair and makeup were done, I looked in the mirror, my jaw dropped and I said “Just give me a pair of wings and I’m ready for the runway!!” I felt Empowered. I felt free. I felt like myself again, that a weight had been lifted off my chest and I could finally breathe again. It was refreshing. I felt feminine and sexy and Caroline made me see that I am enough just the way I am. Caroline helped me get out of my own head and got me through a pretty low point in my life. I literally checked all my self-hate, self-doubting baggage at her studio door and left it there.
Everything was very natural, go with the flow vibes and I loved that. I was surprised about how freeing it was and how comfortable I was. Caroline just has this way about her that makes you feel like you’ve been best friends for years. Once all of my nerves, anxiety and self-doubt were thrown out the window it was so much fun. We were laughing, joking, sharing stories and I was making fun of myself because I clearly couldn’t figure out my right from left. I had no intention of going nude… but I was so comfortable with Caroline that I just went for it. And I’m so glad that I did.
The feeling after my session was pretty amazing too. I felt on top of the world, on cloud 9 and a whole lot lighter because of all the self-hating baggage that I left behind that day. So basically the entire experience as a whole was the best.
Seeing all your images at your reveal… I have no words to describe that feeling. I just sat there in awe, looking in amazement. There were definitely tears involved. I was in shock, I had no words. I could not believe that the woman in those photos was me. I still can’t believe it. After each photo that Caroline showed me on her camera I got more and more comfortable and was able to relax and just have fun. There were times where I had to hold back tears because I did not want to ruin my amazing make up. It felt awesome to just let go, rock out and have fun.
Caroline changed my life; I left my session a new woman. Everything (and nothing) changed. Every scar, every mark and every wrinkle makes us unique and are just reminders of our own personal journey and should be celebrated. I know it sounds so cliché but it’s so true. I am comfortable in my own skin again and its such a relief to just… be. Be at peace with myself. Be happy with myself.It’s crazy to think that a photoshoot could have such an impact on your soul… but for me, this session was the best therapy I didn’t even know I needed.
I am forever indebted, forever thankful and grateful to Caroline and this whole experience. If you WANT to do a session, but are too afraid – talk it out!! TALK IT OUT!!! If you’re thinking about doing a session make sure you are doing it for YOU!!! This entire experience will be liberating, freeing and empowering and it WILL change your life.